Yesterday Naomi had what I think was the most freeing and amazing experience of her life. Since she learned to walk, she's been a runner, so I have never let her out of my sight when at parks or really anywhere. She is either on a leash (which I'm sure some people disagree with, but I don't care, it's a safety issue with her, and I'm actually currently saving up for one that is specifically designed for autstic children and will fit her for the next six years or so), in a stroller, or tightly holding my hand.
Yesterday we went to a friend's house, and she lives in the country. I was super hesitent at first, and actually freaked once when she squeezed past my friend when she opened the door and darted (yeah, I ran out on the frozen ground barefoot), but once we went out to play and I got to walk around and really look at the yard, I was able to relax and let her run free. All I had to do was stand close to the driveway chatting with my friend (or breaking up fights, there were a total of seven kids there, haha), and I knew she was safe. I watched her run in the big field behind their house, flapping her arms and yelling "fly, fly, fly!" (she is obsessed with Land Before Time), and I had to really choke back the tears. It was amazing to me to see my baby be able to do that, and I know she got so much out of it.
With all the struggles we've had, and all the limits I have to put on her to keep her safe, I think that was one of the best things I've ever been able to watch. I've experienced some truly amazing things as a mom, but I think that was the best.
