...letting your child come in the bathroom, when you just got woken up by a loud firework, are having contractions, and really just want SPACE, and letting her sing you the ABCs, because she wants to "show you something", and letting her get closer and closer to you as she sings until she is almost touching you (remember you're still on the toilet), and then excitedly telling her how amazing she did when she is done, because, well, you love her, and these silly moments are what make her so amazing and special. And the part that is truly life with autism? You don't have to fake it. You truly do love it. You live for these special times with your child, you focus on them when she is staring at you blankly not recognizing what is going on because she's just too overwhelmed. You hold them in your heart when she is screaming because her favorite dress is dirty and she just cannot wear it for another day. You store them up for all the times it hurts, it is hard, and it is scary, because it reminds you that while autism brings many challenges, it brings more beauty.
Precious! I LOVE hearing about your family! It's joys AND it's struggles. I live vicariously through you!
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